An Affirmation

He doesn’t smells like youThat’s the first thing that strike my mind when I let him in. His scent is a mixture of very strong masculine perfume with a hint of cigarette. You quit smoking 10 years ago out of boredom.

Tuhan YME dan Maha Penyayang, kalau mau ajak ke pameran ya udah ajak aja sih! Pakai bertanya penasaran mau ikut nonton atau enggak. Diam-diam aku mengumpat karena trik pendekatan yang so last year sekali. Sudah hampir 730 hari aku terbiasa bilang “Iya, Tidak” atau langsung meminta setiap ada maunya. Tarik ulur macam ini jadi menggelikan saja rasanya.

My hand finally reach his upper arm. Unlike yours, his arm seems softer. You are almost double his age, but your muscles are toned and fine. I remember how I always adore your upper arm muscle. You worked so hard to get that. 9 years without day off gives you that. I guarantee, you have zero percent need for a fitness plan.

Tapi suka kan?” jadi penutup perbincangan. Kata ini dikeluarkan karena alasan kesopanan. Dia bicara banyak soal mimpinya. Soal bagaimana proyek ego ini memenuhi kepalanya. Posemu yang tenang sembari menatapku lama, membiarkan kata-kataku yang tersembur cepat tertelan sempurna. Bagaimana kamu lihai mengkotak-kotakkan semua isi otakmu agar bisa bicara seperlunya. Semua pembicaraannya jadi seperti latar belakang yang terus menghilang. Aku melirik jam tangan, mengangkat ponsel demi melihat tanggal. Tanpa sadar kuhitung berapa hari lagi sampai kamu pulang.

His lips touched my forehead. His fingers swirled behind my back.

closed my eyes then think of you.

I hold my breath because a pair of lungs were screaming for your familiar scent down there. My hands collapsed, it won’t be a perfect dance unlike I was with you.

Now I know why every imperfection was makes sense as long as I am with you. 

 

 

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